Monday, November 30, 2009
Who else is getting excited for the holidays?! I get so cheery this time of the year! But My face gets so dry! Really unfortunate!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
A pit is so much worse than a rut. If you are in a rut, the edges are smoothed down and channeling towards the end, all you have is a long climb out. When you are in a rut there is no visible way to get out. How does someone get out of a pit? No one expects to fall into one so it’s not as if you can plan on it. Sure if you are in a literal pit someone can throw a rope, ask for help, etc. What if you are in the kind of pit that no one can tell you’re in? It is an emotional pit of existentialism. One in which, basically, you are getting nowhere with anything.
There will be times where your head is sticking out of the pit. You think everything is better, for a few moments. Those times are always face-slapping mirages. It is the worst feeling to know that you are stuck in a pit. People will spit, shit, rape, set fire, and other horrible things to you while you are in the pit; because they know that they can.
Friday, November 27, 2009
I am going to just say the good news. I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. I cant say I have ever been happier and i dont know why i am crying right now but it just started happenging. I am realizing how happy i am, and it is so beautiful. and i am really tired im sorry. SCHOOL IS GOING GREAT, i finally get math and for the first time ever i have an A in math. I am so proud of myself. I did it without my mother too. So its like a slap in the face to her coz when i was living with her one of the reasons she didnt want me to leave is coz she thought i would lose track of my school work. the facts are i was the most lost at her place. now that i am happy, i am really buckling down. wow. it is gonna be a great next years ahead of me. I promise to post new stuff soon, reviews, thoughts, etc. but i am much to tired now. I just wanted to tell everyone how happy i was. thanks! xx!